The sudden urge of blogging just hit me. You know, I only blog when I felt like doing so. 

Anyway, tonight I was in a good mood. Awhile ago, I felt really bored. Then a friend phoned me. She was too emotional and she just dragged me into this emotional state. LOL. I hitted on YouTube and tuned into 80's music. I was elated and it drove me totally crazy. Ohh myy, those memories... it run down to me. Memories of a lot of things (particularly more on that romantic type) hahaha. 

I was eyeing on this guy. Not that I'm in love with him or something like that. I think I just fancy him after all. Sorry Popoy (my love), I don't mean to crush anyone for that matter. It's just that it's our nature as human beings to be attracted to another aside from your partner. Hahaha. You're still my number one baby and no one will ever ever replace you in my heart! CHEESY, yes I know! Anyways, my crush tweeted just now that he was DRUNK! I remember that one particular moment (the most drunken moment of my life) and turns out he was the one who took care of me. And he was too cute to help me out. Probably one of the few things why I was turned on. I find it new that someone would care that much, and I was awed with his sincere gestures. Hahaha! Kinikilig ako! Ayun lang...

I feel like dancing and singing right now.. "To the beat and the rhythm of the night...." Wala lang, it's my random song for tonight! :) Sorry adik, madaling araw na kasi! Alis na nga ako... Goodnight everyone! :)

Another blog entry

Just to sway myself from anxiety, I decided to post another blog entry. Tomorrow is the official start of classes SY 2011-2012. I'm now on my 3rd year Medicine. (To think that I made this blog during my 4th year HS) I'm not in the mood to sleep, probably being used to late nights of sleep the whole summer. It's school year again, another toxic year ahead of me. How I wish summer never ends.

Awhile ago, I was with Greysi @ Eastwood Mall. The ambiance is a bit relaxing. I preferred it that way rather than staying at home and torturing myself over facebook. It was also my first time to try Happy Lemon... It was good, I actually liked it!:) Haha! But what's best about being in Ewood is having a friend to talk to, to share your thoughts with or just listen to whatever you rant. I'm glad I have someone like Greysi.=) Cheesy, but true.

Anyway, the only thing that excites me for school tomorrow is wearing that V-neck! I worked hard for 2 years just to flaunt that uniform! Hahaha! It's going to be a great day tomorrow!:) Wish me luck!

For three years, I am now ranting...

'Trust is the most precious gem in one's relationship. Once it is broken, it can never be mend back.'

I feel really awful. Our three-year relationship has been constantly on the rocks, but now it is starting to stumble down. They say that the third year is the most critical stage in one's relationship. Some would end breaking up; others would say that it's the lie-low stage and for some others, they would definitely make it.

But, I just don't know with us.

Why would he think that I am secretly in love with somebody else? Funny. He takes it seriously. Wala naman talaga. Why push me into something I am not? I hate it when people would jump eventually into conclusions and say things like that. Why can't you just trust me in the first place? After three years, I guess I should have earned at least a little of that trust. I have proven myself worthy, but even more, you're still pushing me away. Pushing me to someone else whom I have never ever been involved with. EVER. Everyone knows that we're cool, except YOU.

I couldn't contain every thoughts into words right at this very moment. I have lots of things in mind but I'd rather not share it for some apparent reasons. I have loved you deeply, madly, sincerely... and I will always love you. I know that from the very core of my heart. Surprisingly, I have matured as well. I'm no longer the type of "heart-over-mind" girl who I used to be. If worse comes to worst, then so be it. I'm not afraid anymore. My only fear is losing you, but I have a lot of memories to hold onto. With you, I am at my happiest. Memories are the only things to be cherished, and it will always be that way. I'm still young, probably, you are still not the right one for me. Who knows? No one does. But for now, if you leave me, I won't be coming back for you. I won't do the same thing I did before. Much pride has been taken me aback, it could become far worse that I was expecting. If we could make it through, the better. If we'd lose this battle, then we part ways. As simple as that.

Typing this blog really meant a lot. I felt a huge sigh of relief. I was on the verge of tears... But after this, I felt better. Thank you :)

Driving back to memory lane...

Let's talk about the past. I had a brief rundown of things that happened to me 4 summers ago. It was one of the best summers of my life; and sadly, it was also the most painful vacations I've had. 

Last night, I breeze through some of the old photos on my multiply account. One of the albums caught my eye and I opened it without hesitation. To my surprise, it was a date I've had with Ehrli. The way I see it through my facial expressions and smiles, I was ultimately happy. Ehrli was some kind of blessing in disguise to me. Though we had some bad memories together, I assure you that I'll always treasure the best ones. Ehrli never fails to make me genuinely happy. As I was reading my previous entries, I recalled how happy he made me feel. I constantly remembered every cherished memories imparted on me. I am pretty much sure that I loved him. It was maybe too late to admit that. At first, I was in the state of "in denial" and I can't hardly admit what I felt because it was too soon & I was vulnerable at the time. Things were a bit in a rush and then suddenly, just as I was moving forward with a greater pace, he left me. Just like that. It was unbearable and painful. No one could understand what I was up to at that time. 

But that was years ago. It took me awhile to move on, and gladly, I did. I am happy now. Thank you Ehrli. Despite of what happened to us, I am grateful that I met you. You will always have a special place in my heart (as a friend, that is). Not that I'm insulting, but really I am happy & I sincerely thank you! I hope someday you'd read this, wherever and whenever you are. :)

My 7th year blog anniversary!

Seven freaking long years! Who would have thought?

Everytime I would write a blog, I still feel amaze on how long this blog runs now.. and it's still running, with the same features as it was 7 years ago.

The last three days were hard rain showers, on a hot summer! It was declared signal number 1 in Manila, but good thing, the storm had traversed out of the country. The weather seems a perfect timing for watching dvds, being couch potato all morning and of course, sleeping. Last week, I was with my friends (Jen, Jaybunqz, Gab and Kelly) in Sagada, Mt. Province. We stayed for 3 days and headed to Baguio on our last day. That vacation was a one of a kind experience! I have never thought that I could do such incredible things, like spelunking (OMG I'm proud enough to tell that I had finished the cave connection), cliff diving (I fear water and heights & I've never tried anything like it before), hiking all day, sitting on top of a moving jeepney and a whole lot more! We also tasted and ate really good food. I would highly recommend Hiker's Delight @ Yogurt's House and Log Cabin's Menus 1,2,3.. it's definitely a must when you visit Sagada! I had the time of my life. And I know I still would, after having several out-of-town vacations this May. This weekend, I, with my friends Nica and Gretchen will be having our first out-of-town trip to Cebu-Bohol! I'm so excited! I have been with this girls since 2nd year HS and this would be our first trip. I just can't wait! I feel so happy being with them.

During the remaining days of summer, all I wanted is to cherish every bit of it. When school starts, all I can feel is stress and suffering. I can say that I am having a great summer! I may be really broke but even if I am, I would not regret indulging it into summer escapades. Money will always come and go, but memories are forever!